Me My Mind And Thoughts

Amaya

2010-09-11T08:04:00.000-07:00

Did you know that amaya means night rain in Japanese its amazing that its two in one because I love anything that has to do with nighttime like the stars the moon the calmness of it all and how night brings people closer to each other whether its in worship to Allah , between husband and wife or friendship.
I also really love rain I love the smell the dampness and I love that poor people and thirsty animals will get to drink water and how each and every drop is being sent down by an angel in a specific spot ordered by Allah.
Did you ever wonder when you were small that when you used to open your mouth so that rain would go in only one or two drops would enter? Or how when you would put a cup outside it would be filled half full? SubhanAllah it was because Allah didn't order the angels to put it in there.
i especially love driving in the rain at night both of them together is just amazingness on top of amazingness.you know what would be even more amazing being in your warm bed all snuggled up in your blankets while its raining outside and the moon light beaming in.

Finding People And Mixed Emotions

2010-09-11T05:55:00.000-07:00

I know it's been a wile since I posted anything, as usual, but a lot of life changing things have happened and I tend to try to stick as much as possible in this post.
First off.
it's been eleven years since the last time I spoke or saw my father not because something was wrong between us but because we lost contacted.
just a week ago I spoke to him for the first time I don't know how I was expecting it to be but it went a lot smoother than I imagined it to be the last time I saw him I had two sisters and one brother but now I have seven siblings all together mashaAllah, you know even though I've never seen them or spoken to them I really love them maybe its because I'm the oldest one out of all of them I don't know.
its official I'm getting married Insha'Allah khair.
I finally got to see him while I went with my aunty her husband and the brother to go do the blood test for marriage, the needle was painful I didn’t like that but Alhamdulillah.
I've been feeling dull not numb but dull you see the difference between them both is that numb is when you cant feel think or express your feelings but dull is when you can think about it but cant feel anything which makes people worried and isn't nice. recently because the time is getting closer I've been feeling nervous, excited, scared and a lot of other emotions i cant express, the thought of me going in there without Hijab all dressed up is haunting me id rather not think about it until it happens make dua all goes well inshaAllah khair.

is that a FRESHLY UPLOADED PICTURE I SEE?!?

2010-08-28T21:31:00.001-07:00

yes,yes it is in deed.

even kimo's amazed...

Kimo:OOOh WoWs!

Thanks to my very thoughtful auntie, she got the SD case yesterday how sweet of her i really don't know what ill do without her.
oh and the picture from up above the sky so high is a view from muwahidah's home such a nice view mashaAllah!.

SO ANNOYRING!!! and yes i do know how to spell annoying spell checks it to see if she spelled it right

2010-08-25T20:27:00.000-07:00

Ive been wanting to use photos I've photographed in my posts, but the SD card case has wrecked, so i cant transfer the pictures to the computer without it and i don't have a wire ether so ill just have to wait till we get a new one... inshaAllah soon.
but for now heres a few old pictures i took of salt when the SD card was working =3.
a view from my window before sun rise.

a random view of salt i think everyone photographed.

a random cat on the street i thought looked too pretty to be a street cat.

a very fogy day after a big rain fall... brrr it was so cold that day.

a huge puddle of rain (ooo how tempted i was to just jump in it and start dancing)

salt is so pretty mahsaAllah.

Hairy legs... Oh and marriage

2010-08-24T20:41:00.000-07:00

just recently I've been asked for my hand in marriage but this wasn't the first time the bother came to asked my hand in marriage the first time his mother and sister came i cant remember how they look because i wasn't taking it seriously because we were having a bit of problems at that time for a reason i actually forgot... That's good... SubhanAllah it just wasn't the right time.
Anyways he came again and my auntie's husband and another brother who's wife we are very close too that was also the brothers friend not the wife her husband ok its getting complicated so anyways THEY looked into it and asked everyone that knew him like people that worked with him and his friend that lived with him for three years and his roommate and i think family so alhumduliLah people only had good to say about him like he had good manners and he practiced his deen and he is patient and is loving to children so alhumduliLah.
After everything was looked into they gave the go sign and we saw each other well more like he saw me because i was too embarrassed to look at him because he was talking to me and asking me questions so obviously he was looking at me and if i was to look up there would have been eye contact which would lead to me fainting which would have been even more embarrassing which then would put me in a coma then i would wake up 20 years later old looking and he would be married to another person with 10 kids and... you get my point, but i did get to see his foot and leg which BTW was on the ground... ha ha it would be funny if anything did happen and this is in the future when we are old with 31 kids living on a farm siting in rocking chairs on a deck and this is what we would look like
and this is what will happen...
HUSBAND:remember the first day we saw each other oh what a beautiful day that was.
ME:yes it was love at first sight...
HUSBAND:what was the most thing you saw attractive about my looks?.
ME:...
HUSBAND:whats wrong why didn't you answer me?.
ME:*snoring*
HUSBAND:old lady? hey wake up!!!
ME:HUH?? what?!? oh... umm... right well your foot was nice looking and your leg sort of reminded me of mine when i don't wax them but more manly.
HUSBAND: HA HA HA that's what i love about you no matter how fat and old looking you are you still know how to make me laugh.
ME: ha...ha...ha... yeah i was joking... ha...ha...
HUSBAND:yeah so really what did you find most attractive about my looks?.
ME:*runs away while a turtle zooms by*.
So after that was done we gave each other the answer which was: yes from both sides. alhumduliLah i feel comfortable.
Nothings going to happen till after Ramadan inshaAllah all goes well.

I love home decor!

2010-07-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

as my topic describes i really do LOVE HOME DECOR !!!i get so excited talking about it.
I've been searching home decor and architecture sites and saving images of expensive and amazingly made objects that i could never buy and thinking of ways to make something like them that are much cheaper... i have a few ideas I'm planning on using to decorate my "future home" but for now ill just show you pictures i combined together to decorate my dream "future lounge room" as you will obviously see the theme is red and white .
a cool random old retro clock. there's nothing more to it its just plain cool.

a chic and stylish mirror. I'm thinking of going to an antic shop and looking for a frame similar to this one and then painting it red and putting a mirror in it... I'm smart ay?.

i know these are like expensive over sized uneatable fruits but what I'M planing on doing is getting those cheap Chinese plastic fruits and painting them white then putting them in a nice fruit bowl.

and this is the fruit bowl that ill be putting the cheap Chinese badly painted white fruit in YIPPEE!!.

a classic white sofa.

i think these are such pretty cushions especially the red one it looks so delicate and soft.
i haven't found a nice bookcase or a rug yet but I'm sure it will come one day.
so there you have it my dream lounge room :)... hope i have nice taste.
and just one last thing IN YOUR FACE CREATIVE EXPENSIVE OBJECT MAKING PEOPLE WHO THINK OTHER PEOPLE THAT ARE POOR(like me) CANT BUY YOUR STUFF BECAUSE THERE LIVING IN A COUNTRY YOU DON'T "SHIP" TO OOOR BECAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE A CREDIT CARD (YET)!... i don't get it either OK! its late and I'm tired so leave me alone -_-.

Sewing lessons

2010-06-07T06:26:00.000-07:00

I finally started sewing lessons Private sewing lessons, Yay to me! And I’m so excited about it. I did three lessons so far, it’s a bit boring in the beginning because it’s just the basics. I can’t wait to do the real stuff.
The problem with me, is that I want everything to be perfect from the start, so I tend to give up quickly, but not this time inshaAllah I want to finish this project with my head held high and know that I succeeded in my wishes because I put effort into finishing it.

Finally Reading

2010-05-21T11:30:00.000-07:00

I think I'm becoming a book worm, it’s hard to believe because just a year ago I despised reading, If anything had to do with reading I lost interest but, now I can’t sleep without doing it. I’m so happy with myself because it was done out of self determination. Yay to me! I've always wanted to enjoy reading. Reading uses your imagination and lets you experience and understand a story because it explains situations more clearly. All I needed to do was tell myself that I can’t hate it because I didn’t try it. and now ilove it.

Light Graffiti

2010-05-20T15:02:00.000-07:00

I’ve always had a fascination for light graffiti I don’t know why but I just do, there is something so special about it that I love, I think it’s amazing and so relaxing in its own special way, I can look at the same picture for ages without getting bored and whenever i watch an animated video of light graffiti i get goose bumps. like this picture I’m not sure if its light graffiti or Photoshop, but whenever i look at it its like its the first time i see it and it takes my breath away every time (and no i don't have short term memory).

i wish i knew the name of the person who made this :(

Here is a collection of cool and amazing light graffiti. Enjoy.

Blinder by M R I

Under My Umbrella by Jacob
Carter

Pac-Man Light Graffiti by robokon_gt

Light Painting by rafoto

Orbing by Marc B.B

Light Graffiti by Lightmark

i don't know who made his but it really is beautiful

Max Ophuels Preis by

and this is also by Lichtfaktor

and here is a really cool ad for Sprint its so pretty!

and this one is cool too

Ok for those who have no idea what the hell I’m talking about or even care what I’m talking about and want to know what im talking about here is a description:
Light graffiti, also known as light painting is a photographic technique in which exposures are made usually at night or in a darkened room by moving a hand-held light source or by moving the camera.

AND FOR THOUSE WHO WERE SO INSPIRED BY MY POST THAT THEY WANT TO START LIGHT PAINTING RIGHT NOW, here is a tutorial :D

=3

Now for some Seriouse talk !

2010-05-19T03:51:00.000-07:00

I’m so fed up with being the same old me.
Like I’m nearly eighteen and I’m still the same as when I was fourteen, ok I might be A lot more mature and different in the way I think and understand things ok well A LOT more different but that’s not what I’m trying to say what I’m trying to say is that I’m still lazy and “laziness gets you nowhere” The problem with me is that I like doing certain things but only when I’m “IN THE MOOD” like graphic designing and sewing and cleaning (I don’t really like cleaning but it has something to do with my point) and the thing is it’s not like I do it on purpose I’m just not “IN THE MOOD” like my room it was a dumpster and I only did it when I was “IN THE MOOD” I realized that I was being ridicules like dah!, for instance I have always liked graphic designing and I have always had a special interest in it and I want to become better at it but I never put any effort into it unless I was “IN THE MOOD” and that sucks.
Another thing is sewing I love it I’m not good at it at all but I still love it but because I’m not “IN THE MOOD” I haven’t improved. I’m not writing this just because I feel like it I’m writing this because I want to improve and the first person I’m writing this too is myself no one ells but me and if you have this problem in commend with me tell me about it.
People like me have a name but I forgot what it was.

Hey there human beans!

2010-05-18T06:06:00.000-07:00

So as you can see this is my first post of me talking to "myself", not cool not cool at all really lame.
I don’t want anyone thinking of me as some crazy girl who speaks to herself because I’m not... really I’m not... I’m serious… its a blog its what all people do... you don’t believe me? … Okay then I guess I am after all a crazy person *sigh*.
but hey being normal isn’t any fun because if your normal that means your boring which I am so… that makes me crazy and boring Oh well what can I say I’m insane then that makes me crazy, boring, and insane so that means I’m a psycho so that means I look like this
so that means im ugly... man im a good detective which means im good at cluedo.
AAAAAHHH!!! what am i doing!?! What have I become!?!
I think it’s a good idea if I am to be a normal human bean!... do human beans even exist? if they dont that means im an alien which makes me look like this
eww thats even more ugly.